2009 was horrible.  I don’t mean horrible in the “wow that dress looks baaaad” kinda way….I mean HORRIBLE as in “I can’t believe her dad was run over by the tractor driven by her dog so they had to put it down but missed its leg and accidentally euthanized her” kind of way.  Murphy’s law had nothing on the bad turns that each month took.

I will admit there were highlights, good times, and positives that did take place.  Glimmering lights in the sea of darkness that was life.  You know things have hit rock bottom when you tell someone suffering a loss, “I’d like to say things will get better, but every time I do things just get worse.  So, I’ll just say ‘I’m sorry’.”

I don’t want this to become a woe is me jaunt down memory lane.  I’m looking for this to be a cleansing.  Out with the old, in with the new.  It is me shaking my tiny fist at the universe and giving a challenge to the New Year.  I believe the New Year should make its own resolution to fix everything that 2009 fucked up!  Is that too much to ask?

Almost every single friend I have has endured loss in their lives this year.  I see the end result of said loss beating them down.  If I could give one gift it would be to drag them the depths of their sadness and show them a bright new future.  I know that is something they will have to do for themselves, but I promise that I am here to help along the way.

January promises to be life changing in my world.  My fiance and I have spent so much time apart whilst going through the process to have him move here.  All of life’s challenges are easier faced with your partner in life by your side.  I have found my missing piece, the man that brings out a better me - and I do the same for him.  We will stand together as the government makes the decision that will affect the rest of our lives.  We will start off 2010 together and not let anything hold us back.

So, bring it world.  Bring in the New Year and give everyone a new canvas to paint their future.  2009 burned down the old and it’s up to you to start anew.

I send love to those who have lost so many loved ones, faced an uncertain future, had their jobs torn from their grasps, and felt the darkness that can overwhelm you.  I know this year will be better - for all of us.

Happy New Year everyone - show it who’s boss!!